My Current Wishlist

If I was to write a wishlist of what I really wanted deep down inside, it would include things such as wishing I'd never got the illness's I have or at least that I'd recover from them permanently, wishing my mum would go back to normal, to have been able to say goodbye to Theo, to be able to afford to buy a house, a big enough one for us and to get one for my mum too, for my brother and me to be able to get the careers we want, a holiday abroad with my boyfriend and to have had a bit more time before I got pregnant to be able to spend with him, and for him to be vegetarian. The last might sound odd, and I'd never force it on him or have I ever suggested it, but it would be so nice for the person I love to share how I feel in that area with it being such a big part of my life.

Some of them might one day be achievable, along with our dream to have our own animal shelter/sanctuary, but others such as health are less likely, and therefore so is having the career I really want. Talking about things like that can get me really down, so I've gone for the more shallow or just simple and light hearted version of a wish list instead!

                                

                                        My Wishlist

Now I love clothes, and find it hard to get rid of the items in my wardrobe I barely wear, but I think this is due to the fact I hardly had any clothes until I went to uni and most of what I did have was black or from a market stall, so finally being able to buy clothes I liked and wanted was a massive thing for me. Sometimes in the past I should have controlled my spending, as I've always been on a budget and therefore have occasionally made things difficult for myself. 

Currently I am super broke, but also more sensible since becoming pregnant, but if I had the money here's what I would be buying:

• Oasis Crinkle and Button Tie Blouse -£35.00: several times I have walked through one of Leeds shopping centers past Oasis, my eyes being drawn by the vibrant summery colours but always managing to avoid going in there, since its out of my budget. However one day I did go in and found my self desperately wanting this top and......

• Oasis Coloured Cherry Crop Jeans - £45.00:.....these jeans. I LOVE the colour of both items. I've always loved electric blue, but the items are placed next to each other in the store as an outfit suggestion and it would be the perfect summery outfit to inspire me to get back into shape after pregnancy so I could fit into them and look good.

• I - Pod - I don't care what kind, I'd just like one. The rare times I've had the money to buy one, I've always needed something else, but I love my music and its makes it so much easier being able to pick from any track rather than switch Cd's or listen on you-tube. Seems like I'm rather back in the stone ages, but its just lack of money. My previous mobile was quite good to be able to store music (HTC Hero), but my HTC wildfire is awful, which most people who I've talked to about it have suspected its because Phone for you sold it to me without the correct software on.

• Glee: The Music presents The Warblers -  Talking of music, I like a wide range. From Placebo to Will Young, Bonjovi to Taio Cruz, Arcade Fire to Katy Perry, The Kinks to Old school Trance anthems......etc. Now some people hate Glee but I'm not ashamed to say I LOVE the over the top cheesy, auto tuned singing show. I love the songs they do and I particularly loved the warblers from season 2, so this is now one of the albums I'm wanting to add to my collection. I'm listening to them online as I type this, and no I'm not ashamed!

• Precious Planet Space Saver: -  by fisher-price. Full price from the shops, there is no way I can afford this, but I've been bidding on eBay (so far unsuccessfully) as they have some selling on there. So when I get paid I'm determined I will get hold of the next one I bid on! I fell in love with it when I saw one out in Mother care and it will match with my baby girls bouncer if I do get one.

Katies nail art with Peach Melba

• Barry M Peach Melba Nail Varnish: - Now I wasn't so bothered about getting this shade at first when I brought my first Barry M varnishes a couple weeks ago, but after I saw Katie Lewis's nails done in this colour, I really wanted it. So hopefully I'll get myself a bottle when I next get paid.

• Charm Factory Bracelet: - Recently Emma Louise did a blog give away to win a charm bracelet from The charm factory  and I fell in love with one of their bracelets, besides the fact instead of spelling 'mum', it spells 'mom'. So if I could swap the middle cube for a 'U' then this will be a future purchase.

I'm sure my list is actually longer than this, but for now I'm off to make tea......fajitas tonight, which now reminds me of Jade Shackcloth.

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*The girls mentioned have links to their blogs, please take a look

Recent Beauty Purchases

Over the past few months, most of my spare pennies have gone on baby purchases, because my god do they cost a 

lot when you realise everything you need when you are bringing one into the world, and also my wage is really not great!

Despite being a graduate, I'm just a lowly band 2 in the NHS, but its giving me experience which will hopefully help me progress to better jobs. 

Reality vs what I'd like

Anyway job aside, I'm not usually the best at saving money, although I desperately want too, as I have a severe lack of will power and a weakness when it comes to clothes, shoes, make up (on a lesser front), buying drinks for anyone and everyone when i get to my very drunk over generous stage on a night out, cheap DVDs (which add up when you buy quite a few!) and god knows what else. Which would probably explain why I run out out of money, as I can't really afford any of this, especially when I was renting a flat on my own, paying all the bills etc.

However since I've been pregnant and passed the anomaly scan stage at 22 weeks, which was a safety mark for me (I wasn't pushing my luck and buying anything until I knew all was ok), the normal desire of window shopping and lusting over things for myself had ebbed away. Possibly due to the fact my bump was starting to emerge, so clothes shopping was no longer the same, I was only buying the occasional thing to allow for an expanding bump, but also because some kind of maternal instinct had kicked in and all that I was interested in buying was baby themed.

Its taken a long time, but I think we finally have almost everything she needs.....for now, so I think signals went off in my brain in the past week that told me I was actually allowed to buy something for myself again (besides larger sized clothes, although I do love the maxi dresses I brought to help accommodate baby and my larger size).

So everyone's been chatting about Barry M nail polish......mainly nail effects or Peach Melba......but I've never tried any of their normal varnishes and ever since I spotted the blueberry ice cream shade, god knows how long ago, I have wanted it, and after a brief browse in Superdrug, also quite fancied the mint green and mushroom shades.

So yesterday, in the scorching heat, I dragged my heavily pregnant self into Leeds city center and to Boots, hoping the 2 for £5 offer was still on, but pretty expectant that it wouldn't be. Sadly I was right, there's now an offer of 3 for 2 on Barry M eye products instead, but I had my heart set on the varnishes and I chose:

Blue Moon, Blueberry Ice cream, Mint Green and Mushroom*

  *All paler looking shades in reality but the pic makes them look different

So I'm looking forward to trying them out, think I'm gonna go for blueberry first, but then mint green for if I am going somewhere since that's meant to be in fashion now according to More! magazine. As I said, I've never used Barry M varnish before so am not sure of the quality but the variety of colours they do in all their make up is appealing and I love their dazzle dusts too.

I also had happened to run out of Black Mascara, and even though I was lucky enough to get a blue Elizabeth Arden mascara for only the postage recently, black mascara is more my staple colour when doing my every day basic make up. Due to a small budget I often go for Collection 2000 mascara for the good prices, and when getting more extravagant ones from Rimmel on occasions I have been disappointed. I also use their shimmering glow, which I was running low on. Sadly they didn't have my shade, so I've decided to try out the mosaic glow, and opted for the waterproof version of the longer lash mascara this time, due to it being hayfever season and me being a bit hormonal......I want to reduce the risk of panda eyes lol. 

As if to make up for the Barry M offer being over, to my luck there was an offer on Collection 2000....buy any two of their products (which I needed to) and get a free Pure Lip Gloss. There were only a couple of shades and I have no idea what this product is like, but I have brought and liked some of their other ranges of lip gloss in the past and I love anything free so I picked one: 

Collection 2000: Mosaic Glow, Waterproof lengthening Mascara and Pure sheer Lip Gloss Shade: Honey 4

It looks all sparkly and lovely but I don't know what it will look like on, don't want to look like a 5 year old who's raided her mothers make up bag!

 My final reason for going to Boots was to get hold of some Jergens Naturals Skin firming body moisturiser that was mentioned in last weeks More Magazine. During this pregnancy, my legs have got a bit of the orange peel affect which is depressing as they used to be my best feature in my eyes. I can't afford expensive anti cellulite creams and magic potions, so I thought this was worth a try as it promises to 'visibly firm cellulite prone skin' but a few weeks ago I did also invest in a trustworthy body brush to get that circulation going too! As luck would have it, it was on offer too, all Jergens products half price in Boots. So I brought two!

I also grabbed a powder brush whilst I was there, went for the cheaper option of a 17 brush as it was less than half the price of the others,

but I guess that means I can't complain if its not great quality and bristles start falling out. But my cheap ELF one did quite well for several months. On that topic, I haven't treated myself to any ELF products for ages, but some of my purchases from them have been brilliant, in particular I LOVE their face primer and the foundation All Over Cover Stick. I've been a bit heartbroken getting the emails, saying free eyeshadow pallet with your order, knowing I couldn't make an order!

Anyway talking about things I want, my wishlist, is a whole other blog post!! So I'm off to have a bath and paint my nails since I stayed in to rest today instead of trekking around 36 weeks pregnant, wearing myself out!

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